When I first launched this site as a personal companion to TheCubicleChick.com, I had every intention of updating it on a regular basis while giving those who cared a more authentic look into this life of mine. When my other site became more of a magazine format with other voices contributing content, I wanted a place where I could shoot the breeze without deadlines or time constraints. TCC is the breadwinner and the flagship—my labor of love. But this was supposed to be a place where it didn’t matter how much traffic I received, or if a post went viral or not. It was supposed to be a place where I could discuss projects, thoughts, feelings, personal anecdotes, etc.
Then somehow, on my watch, it went left.
Let me be completely honest. I had no idea what I wanted this site to be. I was advised that I needed to secure my name in the domain format and put something up for my brand. So I did what I was told and thought—just do it. But the problem with just doing it is that if you don’t have a plan of action, just doing it becomes counterproductive. Because you aren’t really doing anything. Because you have no plan. Because you are just following the masses and doing what others said you should do. Because they are the experts and they did it. And it worked for them so it should work for you.
All that BS is wrong on so many levels.
So I put up this site, and tried to add content to it, but faltered. Because my heart really wasn’t in it. I was being a mechanical follower doing what I thought was supposed to bring more cache to my name. But of course, when there is no passion behind what it is you are doing, then there isn’t much motivation either. And for about six months, I haven’t been motivated to put up anything on this site. Then last night, while participating in Shaun King’s 100 Life Goals University, it hit me. What’s been missing out of my life has been an outlet where I can discuss stuff on a more personal note. Where there’s no rhyme or reason, or formality. Where I can create my own set of rules and break ’em if I wanted to. Because it doesn’t matter.
I need to do better at being ME. The Cubicle Chick is a PART of me, but it isn’t ME. It’s a website devoted to career and work life balance, and family, and everyday technology. And I love that it has gotten a great following and has allowed me to do stuff I used to only dream about. But I want more, I long for more. I am more than just a catchy name and brand. I have so much to share, but oftentimes, don’t feel it appropriate to do so on TCC. So I just store it up and it lingers and festers and nags me in the middle of the night.
What to do with all of these thoughts and feelings?
They will now go here. One of my goals for 2014 is to do things with purpose. Not to just do them because they are the soup du jour of the flavor of the moment—but because I see a need to do them. Because I want this to be more than a space for me—but something that I can use to do good. Encourage others. Enlighten. Soothe. And yes, even rant and make waves.
So yes, I need to do better. And I will.
Hopefully you will stay tuned. I am just getting started.
